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Nottingham gay pride 2009 [31 Jul 2009|02:54pm]
God not been on this live journal for a while, Just want to say really for me going to nottingham gay pride 09 for the first time I really did enjoy myself. It was so nice just to see other people in the same situation and to be proud of who you are doing the march I was a little tearful cos coming out as being gay is not always good for some people it can be very hard. life as being gay and coming out for the first time and the recaction from the other people can be very strange at times you feel that you are on your own but going to gay pride from there you know that you are not on your own. I would like to say thank you to my friends claire willgoose, pixie, Jamie turner and dave the rave man for being there and giving your support it meant alot to me and I am so pleased that I have great friends who understand me thanx again xxxxxxx
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[07 Jun 2007|05:07pm]

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Yeah thats right I have dieced not to go ahead with live journal anymore but im always on myspace alot. here is the address www.myspace.com/denisebowlesrocks my profile is set to private so if u wanna read anything you have to add me as a friend. im gonna miss live journal but i have noticed that my friends dont seem to bother with live journal no more and just use there myspace. anyway it has been nice knowing you hopefully I will see you on myspace


Denise xxxxxx
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what a start for 2007 [06 Jan 2007|01:56pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I have came down with a very bad cold I caught it from my dad, I feel like shit at the mo can not stop sneezing and blowing my nose. I have stuff for my nose and Im drinking loads of hot tea, I hope I get better soon cos I have things to do with the band and that. Just b4 xmas I met up with my cousin Emma and we went to Mansfield for the day, It made a change we had a walk round the shops and had something to eat in yates pub. Then later on I went back to Emmas house and Jay did us a lovley tea of spag bowl. I need to take my tree down today cos it is the last day most people I know took there tree down b4 news years eve, I think that is a bit too early.
Talking of xmas I had a nice one spent it at my mum and valdos house, But on xmas eve I went out uptown with my mum and valdo, They was dressed as santa and they was the best outfits in the pub. We went into observertrey and they had a lock in and played music belive it or not. We was allowed to stay cos we have become friends with the staff there and we got them a pressie for xmas. We did not leave there until 2.am it was a good night I enjoyed it. It was also ALO's first xmas too he had loads of treats including xmas dinner and his stomach was full cos it came out if u know what I mean?.
I got a HP PRINTER AND SCANNER for my computer, Keeping up Apperancess (The Bucket women) On Dvd, mp3 player a pink one, Warm Winnie the Pooh socks that you wear in bed, A big Winnie the Pooh picture from my brother Martin and some Reebok trainers and also choccies from Manda (Miss Bruce). I did get other things too but can not remeber what I got. Just b4 the new year I met up with carl ( Have I got news for you), We went to Frankie and Bennys In nottingham for a meal, My meal came upto £16 all toghter I had the Garlic bread with morsella cheese then the lasanque with chips and two puts of tea. Carl had the Garlic Bread with Morsella cheese, Then he had the cheese and tomarto Pizza with two Glass of coke. Then from there I went back to his place for abit then his grandad dropped me off home.
On new years eve I went to the gateway hotel cos it was my cousin Kirstys 18th birthday, It was also my first new year celabrating it with my dad and sue, Dad belive it or not had a cold so that explains how I got mine. At the Hotel we had a cooked buffet and also there was entertainment. Kirsty got off with the entertainments guy and Terry was not too pleased. On new years day I spent it with mum and valdo in observartry and also Frank and Nat who work there came to sit with us after they had done there shived, I was talking to Frank about a few issues I had about a cousin of mine, Then I started talking to Nat about allsorts of things. Frank might be coming out with us to NG1 in Nottingham on the 26TH Januray. Staralike are doing well we now have a keybroad player her name is 22 year old Liz Mckeever. We do have some other news but we are not saying what it is at the mo so u will have to keep on checking the site for the news. www.myspace.com/staralikez anyway im off now to make myself another cup of tea speak to u later xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Are you ready for xmas? [10 Dec 2006|11:13pm]
Im more aless there now still got a few more things to get, Im gonna get ALO A new bed and Troy a scratching post and both of them new collers. I have already got all me mums stuff, I got them from Meadow Hall the other day. I got her Boney M on CD, P!nk Dvd, The first Ever season of Buffy on Dvd, Daniel odonnell calender. I got Valdo Kylie on Dvd and Martin a 50 cent calander. I put my tree up today and it looks nice being near the window I dont know Im in a xmas mood now.

I saw Manda the other day for the first time in what seems like ages, it was her bday, At first the plan was to go out for a meal and a drink but then it worked out that some of us could not afford it with it coming upto xmas and that. So Manda has changed it all to a later date and that is better for all of us. So instead I went to Mandas house to see her and give her a card. I wish I could of stayed longer cos I could tell in a way that manda had missed me and she wanted what we call our girlie chats. We had sort of a girlie chat but not long enough cos the amount of peeps who was there and then later on dave turned up. so in a few days im gonna arrange something for me and manda to meet up and spend sometime toghter. I would like that more than anything and it will also be nice just b4 xmas, cos when its xmas you seem to spend time with your family more and I know that will be happening again with me this year.

I lent lady di next door £10 the other day, she said she would give it me back today well guess what no sign of it yet, I went round but she got her son to answer the door and the message was oh my mum will c u tommorrow. I dont mind that but she has a deadline to give me the money back I would say I will give her this friday if I dont get it back then im no longer lending her any money from me again. do u think that is a right idea for her to hopefully give me the money back by this friday?

I went for an eye test the other day at D.I BLOW Where my dad goes, Im so glad I went there, the bloke told me that I need an oparation on my eyes. u c my eyes water alot and I can not fully close them either, so if i have this op done it will stop my eyes watering loads. Im not going to specsavers no more cos they dont tell you jack shit about your eyes. Im gonna get some new glasess after xmas and they r on about making my lences thinner, Im sick of the thick lences I have at the mo.

I have been doing a course about my music and getting it to the next stage, Erwash are a real good help they dont judge u witch is good and Staralike could hopefully be doing gigs over in amercia when we have all our band members. We have been asked would we like to be a support act for this band who are based in the USA. We have said yes and it does sound like a really good Idea cos we would like our music to be heard all over the world at some point in our lives. I will keep you posted and let you know what happens with that.

anything I have not put up on this update has been posted on this site so please feel free to have a read


Gavin and Nicky I know you read my journal sometimes so please whatever you do dont mention to my mum what I have got her for xmas cos I would like it to be a superise thank you

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what a weekend it has been [13 Nov 2006|12:44am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I know I have not update on here in what seems a very long time for me but I have been rather busy. I will update the things I can remeber what I have been upto since the last time I posted. when it was a year on to grannys death some of the family including me went out for the day we all met up at the grannys grave first then from there we went out for a meal at morley hayes I had the samon dinner witch was nice. then afterwards we went to mass cos there was mass for granny then everyone came back to grandads for a cup of tea and sandwichs.

Towards the end of september I went away for the weekend to skegness with Justin and david. it was davids first time in skegness and I think he liked it. when i was there I got some bath stuff from the market and a skull bracelet and we had a meal at this new place called hollywood diner that was real nice. the bed and breakfast was a shambles but nevermind about that.

Im now in a band called "STARALIKE" Let me tell you the story how that all happened well a few days before I went to skegness I had a email from two girls who I used to go to school with Natalie Martin and Linsday Morris. Well they read my myspace site and seen the bit where it says looking for band members plus backing singers well Natalie and Linsday are intrested in becoming backing singers for the band that Im looking for. I met up with them when I got back from skegness but before that the last time I seen them was at school 8 years ago so yes we had some catching upto do. Natalie is a wedding planner at Nottingham uni and Linsday is an account for powergem plus she is also married. So at the mo there is the three of us in the band but we r still looking for other band members check out our site www.myspace.com/staralikez there is still some work that needs to be done to it hopefully in the next few months or so it should hopefully be done.

I had abit of a scare a few weeks ago this girl terri who i used to hang out with at the time she split up from her boyfriend and fingers was pointed at me for no reason at all. Terri went mad in the head and put R.I.P with across underneath it on my front door. I stayed away for that week cos I was being hassled by terri via texts and I did not feel safe to go home. when things carmed down I went back home and I ended up bumping into terri in the street I told her I was scared she said denise it was not me but I was hearing from others that it was so I did not know who to belive. then my mum saw terris mum tina and said terri would never do such a thing and that she wants me and terri to speak again.

I now have a cockaspanel puppy named ALO it was my step sisters amandas dog but she has gone back to work full time so that would mean that the dog would be in the house all day. so i have had him he is a little bugger but he is lovley.

On friday I met up with Justin and david in nottingham cos we was heading to see WWE RAW AT NOTTINGHAM ARENA, We also stayed at the park plaza hotel where the WWE RAW was staying I saw there bags in recption but did not see them cos the room we was in I could say was out of this world, we had a mini bar I had a bottle of wine that was nice and it was all included in the price £139 all toghter. The wrestling was sooooooooooo ccccccccccccccoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooollllllllllllllllllllll, I loved carlitos match vs shelton benjamin and also DX, JOHN CENA, RANDY ORTON, UMARGA AND EDGE. To say im not struck on mIckie James very much I must admit she is a good fighter I dont know seeing her live fighting can change ur views on some of the wrestlers and I have with Mickie James. I do admit I did miss trish, I here they r coming back at some point next year in nottingham im deffo going again to see them and do my best in meeting them if poss. did not meet them this time cos when they done at nottingham they went onto the next venue are well nevermind.

Last Night I went to see p!nk at nottingham arena I took my mum and valdo, we all enjoyed it and p!nk has changed in a slight way it could be married life who knows. she still rocked though and I would go and see her again when she tours in a few years time.

Denise xxxx

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[04 Oct 2006|09:05pm]

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I will never like the months of September ever again [22 Sep 2006|09:28pm]
[ mood | confused ]


If there is a god then why does he take the good ones and why does he leave the bad ones on this earth for? can anyone answer that? No I didnt think so. No one knows why that god is like that for I mean why take someone who had leukema who was only 13 god dont think of the ones that patrick leaves behind, I know his mum and dad r in bits about it all but I tell you one thing my heart goes out to them who has lost a child. Tommorrow will be a year when I lost Granny Rose I know she is looking after Patrick but a year on im still waiting for her to phone me and say would u like to come for dinner, I know its strange thinking like that but a year has gone really fast. When I was at Patricks Funeral on monday it just brought back aload of memories for me cos I know how patricks mum and dad feel, losing someone close to u is like losing apart of urself too and no one can really explain it.


A few weeks ago I went away on hoilday to skegness, I had a fab time and the break did me a world of good but I go back there again next weekend with Justin, David and carl. When I was there a few weeks ago it was nice to see an old face back at fantasy island and that is the singer Amanda she knew who I was straight away and I got the biggest hug from her witch was really nice, I made some new friends while I was there too the dancers and one of them kate gave me her number on the second day of meeting witch I thought now normally that is me giving out my number to people. I more aless met my soulmate but in a friendship kind of way Kate understood where i was coming from and that and she never judged me witch was good. Just wish that I could find my soulmate for a loving relantionship and share my life with them, one day that will come cos i can feel it in my bones.
I went away with my mum, valdo, martin, kirsty, teresa, Amanda, Ami and Karen. my dad and sue did not come down this time cos they have done something to there house witch looks lovley. Amanda and Kirsty did not get on for many of reasons cos Amanda kept on waking everybody up at 6.55am every morning with Ami that pissed us off a bit though. I got a shock of a life time when I was there my mum got a phone call from my aunty Marie saying that her and Sinead are in skegness for the day and would we like to meet them I was like
WHAT? I thought its not like them to be here in skegness. We met up with them and I ened going on rides with Sinead ( LITTLE MISS BRUCE ) LOL, She dragged me on the waltzers, twister and the big wheel I was glad to get off lol but I really did enjoy it and I think Sinead and Marie did too I think they will come again and maybe spend a few nights with us next time. I brought myself a wrestling t shirt it only cost me £5 for it but u know it is a fake I will get the real thing when I go in november. I also brought myself a sports suit like a shell siut kind of thing its a nike air max one its red and white and I like it that cost me £20.

Last week I spent it with Carl and my cousin Emma, I went to the cinema with them both first of all we watched LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE What a scream all the way through I was laughing my head off, when it comes out on dvd dont rent it buy it cos that is how good it is. The other film we went to see was WICKERMAN  What aload of fucking wank god I was ssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bored its not even scary I would not even think of watching it again. 

This New years eve I am going to be spending it at the gateway hotel in nottingham with the family on my dads side and my mum and valdo plus martin will be there. It is kirstys 18th bday that day and that is where we r going for it. it is a sit down buffet with entertainment bed and also breakfast for the price of £90 for the whole night witch I think is a good deal. So I can see this new years eve being really good. But guess what Amanda is not invited oh well shame on her. that is kirstys words lol.

I have finally got myself a new phone it is a samsung s400i it cost me £99 from tesco, the camera on it is so clear, the motorola phone that I had has gone in the bleedy bin thank god.

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R.I.P Patrick [10 Sep 2006|11:28pm]
[ mood | sad ]

today I have lost one of my 3rd cousins his name is patrick he was only 14years old and he had luekema

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Relationships [02 Sep 2006|07:34pm]

Subject: Relationships


I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their email.

Your response will be interesting.

Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you.

Here goes

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Send this to every friend that you have on-line, including the person who sent it to you.



If you get:

0 Replies - you may need to work on your "people skills"

2 Replies - you are nice but probably need to be more outgoing

4 Replies - you have picked your friends well

6 Replies - you are downright popular

8 Replies or More - you are totally awesome (and that's probably why

you're on MY list)

I wonder what mine will be????

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Sorry not updated on here in ages [20 Aug 2006|05:44pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I have been rather busy for the past few weeks so Im going to tell u on what I have been doing.


That was on the 1st July the whole day was lovley including the weather, Mum looked really nice in her Ivory dress, Alltoghter they was about 400 people that came to the wedding. The meal and buffet was lovley and so was the limo yes thats wright I went in a limo that was from the craveyard to chatley house, The reason why we went to the craveyard on mum and valdos wedding day was cos mum went  and took her bokay of flowers and put it on grannys crave, I took some pics of the whole day and they turned out really good. It was a shame that England did not win but apart from that the rest  of day was very good.


Well I did not go to the cinema cos Terri let me down so Instead I met up with my mates Manda and dave for a drink in nottingham, we went to the walkabout bar then weatherspoons I had a good time I got a few pressies like a bear photo album thing and a track siute from another aunty. I also went to Cloughies for a meal with me mum, valdo, my brother Martin, Dad, Sue, Uncle steve, aunty Lorraine, mates from Ireland Paddy and James. I also got money too witch was good. My wish for my next birthday is I hope to be with someone by then that would be nice.


Well 3 years ago I nearley got attacked by this young lad on a bike, he asked me for the time and when i was looking for my phone I noticed what he was trying to do, he was trying to put his hand on my breasts, dont worry he did not get that far cos i hit him with this toy that I had in my hand at the time. he went off on his bike so I could not get him, I got in touch with the police about it they got the lad for it and I got compo for what he did and he got 200 hours commiuty servise cos at the time he was only 13.  But a few weeks ago the same lad beat his stepdad to death outside a Ilkeston pub. when i heard about it well it made me feel Ill cos if u think about it I was one of the lucky ones.


To say that Terri let me down on my birthday to go to the cinema instead Justin came down from Doncaster for a few days and he took me to the cinema to watch Just My Luck starring Linsdsey Lohan and Mcfly. I really enjoyed the flim I will get it when it comes out on Dvd. Justin said that the bloke in the film reminds him of how he is cos Justin dont get alot of good luck these days. The next day me and Justin went to skegness for the day on the train it was Justins first time ever going to skegness and I think he really enjoyed himself. First of all we had a bite to eat in skegness b4 I took him to Ingoldmells. When we was there in Ingoldmells I took him on my fav ride the wild mouse and he screamed all the way around and he looked pale when he got off but after abit he picked up. we walked around the market and I got a few bits I must of spent about £60 on the market but it was worth it. I went into this sport shop and my mate Mel still works there I have not seen her for 2 years and she looked so pleased to see me. I told her that I have my own place and that lot so thats why you have not seen me much. I went in scallywags showbar plus woodys wine bar and the lagoon stage. Amanda the singer is back I did not see her but I saw a pic of her on the noitce bored and also the dragon lisa works behind the bar at woodys. you know what its nice to see some old faces back there. I  shown justin the beach and we took some photos I even went in the sea witch was nice cos when I was there i could take my hair down and just chill out cos I knew that i was away from all the stress back home. I know Justin enjoyed himself he would like to go there again and bring his mate david so I said that I would take them both on the 16th september.


All this is from the jobcentre they have find me a mentor for my music and his name is Ian and he is with the BND. I have met him once and spoke to him on the phone twice he said I have got what it takes to be in the music biz. he has gave me some homework to do and at the mo im trying to get hold of fish. I will keep u posted on that one and let u know how things go.


I Had to go back to Eastwood the other week, well what it is really is im trying to get justice to be done on my ex stepdad for what he did to me and my brother all them years ago. He Physicaly and mentaled abused me and my brother but not in a sexual way. People dont reliease this but it has scarred me for life and it feels like that he has got away with it scott free. it is all in the hands of eastwood police stn now so i will keep u posted with that also.


My mate manda met justin last week, she made me luagh tho cos yes Justin does talk alot but he has also got a heart of gold bless him. When they was slinece that was not for long say about a second of it then he would start. "JACKIE THIS JACKIE THAT THE STUPID LEO SAYER NUT, BARBARA THIS BARBARA THAT DRIPPY DAVE ETC......................" When Justin went out to the market uptown I went and had a bath and I left manda listing to some music on the tv, when i returned my living room had change manda changed it all around and U know what it looks loads better thank you manda. The other day I met up with carl we went to the cinema and we watched my super ex girlfriend it was an ok film but im in no hurray to go out and buy it. we then went and had a meal at frankys and bennys itwas lovley I must say but the bill game upto £25. Yesterday justin came down for the day and I took him for a chinese meal now I went to one in hockley and manda went to flaming dragon at the corner house, so at the last min me and Justin went to the flaming dragon I must say lovley servise and also food the bill game upto £15 witch that was good. I then took justin on the bus and we went to Bulwell we had alook around the market and  I got myself a new wireless keybored and mouse for £24.99. I got the album by Rogue traders starring her who plays Izzy in neighbours. I also got a WWF fighting came for the ps1. Then not long after we went to the hard rock cafe and I got myself a new t shirt then we went to the walkabout bar and had a little snack.


That I have booked me wrestling tickets for this november firday 10th we r on block seven.

Denise xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[20 Jul 2006|12:50am]
[ mood | sad ]



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[11 Jul 2006|01:40am]
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.  (yeah i miss alot of people) I don't watch much TV these days. I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (yes glasses but sometimes i wish my eyes could get better) × I love to play video games(yeah ridge racer) I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (no more like heather was the psycho lol) × I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (true)
I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
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My Birthday plans for this sunday the 2nd july [26 Jun 2006|07:44pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

First of all I dont feel to well today so if im being bitchy in this update then im gonna apoliagise now. Today I went to see me Doctor cos i have hayfeva and he has gave me some tablets for it now this is the first time I have had tablets for it I need to take one a day, so starting from tommorrow I will take one, I told me doctor that I dont go in flower shops cos im sneezing like mad so he said that theese tablets mite help witch I hope they do. yesterday I went round to see our Alfie he turned 5 the other day and lydia will be 4 next week, they had a party up at the church hall I did not go to the party cos of the nite b4 so after the party had done I went to see them both at there house, This time I had cards for them both with money in it normally I buy them a game or some sweets but I did not know what to get them both this time so they had money from me instead. I still call him Mr Alfie bless him both of them looked pleased to see me they did not want me to leave I was there for about two hours and with me not feeling to good today I started feeling abit of when I left Alfies house.

Also yesterday I went round to me mum and valdos house for me dinner we was chatting about the nite b4 and how good it was and that we really enjoyed the nite, it was me mum and valdos hen and stag nite, I met me mum at 8.pm at the Mailhouse with me mate Terri and when I got there my cousin Marion was there and one of me mums friend called marie doherty I have seen her b4 but this is the first time i ever spoke to her I think and she said that she is going to be at me mums wedding on saturday. When I was in the mailhouse I got talking to Jodie I know Jodie she used to work at the warren, I seen Jodie about 2 weeks ago and she gave me her number so when i saw her at the mailhouse on saturday she said if i call in to the mailhouse on the sunday of me birthday she would like me to be there b4 4.pm she said that she would buy me a birthday drink and also Jodie will be there the sunday nite of me birthday too. Then from there we went to the warren and met up with this women angie and her boyfriend still from this day I dont know his name, Then a little later on we went to the market inn and we was dancing but as we was dancing I saw this women who looked alot like her who plays Viv Hope in Emmerdale I told everyone else about it and they started laughing mind u it was funny. Later on we ended up at the new night club the factory that is the first time i have been in there and u know what it looks really nice, I had a really good nite Barbara, Martin, Joe, Jim, Mick, sam, Mark, paul, dave and valdo was all in there too and thats what made it better I think. I did not go home drunk but I did walk home tipsey lol.

I manged to speak to mum and valdo on there own for abit too I told them on how much I miss having a dog around the place but I have come up with a really good story on what to say to lady di next door the nosey old bag, Im after a black labberdoor male puppy I love them to bits and I already have a name for it Benji. if lady di asks whos is the dog I was gonna turn round and say that im looking after it for a friend while she has gone to austrailia and if lady di asks oh whats ur friends name I was gonna turn round and say oh her name is trudy bruce lol. On friday I went uptown to get mesen some new socks and I also got two ps1 games u c my grandad has got a ps1 at his house for the grandchildren and it does need some new games. So I went into game stn and I got Ridge Racer and Rage Racer and it was a buy one get one free so I only paid 6.99 for one game in me past I have played both of them games b4 and they r really good. last sunday Kev me step brother in law came round to my place and he sorted me cooker out for me U know what it feels werid me cooking on me cooker after all this time. also last sunday I went to a family BBQ at grandads house all of us was there me, neil, micheal, joe, james, martin, wills, charley, sinead, mum, valdo, marie, micheal, maderline, georgie, john, laim and grandad we all had a good day and me and john have been getting on really well to say that we fell out a few years ago. it did feel werid that granny was not there but since she has gone all of us have become real close.

Not friday just gone but the friday b4 that I saw manda and kirsty on the bus I was heading to me dads at the time and they was heading into nottingham me and manda was chatting like two old women again everytime me and manda see each other thats it u can not shut us both up. I miss seeing manda but I still look upto her as my best mate and big sister I hope manda u can make it for this sunday. ok this sunday its my birthday and I will be 24 years old and what i have planned is to go to the cinema the corner house in nottingham to watch just my luck starring linsday lohan and mcfly. I will be catching the bus at the bottom of town in ilkeston just b4 7.pm so I hope to see u there

Denise xxxx

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my brothers 18th birthday party plus other stuff [07 Jun 2006|08:03pm]
God i am hot today just been to have a bath to cool me down and i feel loads better all my windows are open through so im watching troy to make sure he dont jump out cos he is a bugger sometimes lol well thats cats for u. I have been spending sometime with terri cos she has been having problems at home with her step dad now I have been down that road myself and I know what it is like it is not nice. My x step dad beat me up and Bullied me all cos I was differnt to the other kids and also I was not his own, Im glad that he is out of my life now cos its all about moving fwd and not looking back I mean dont get me wrong sometimes I do have flash backs for what he did but they r not too bad now its something that i will have to put up with. Terri has been staying at my place plus ants while everything cools down at her place. Her mum and step dad go away on saturday so i will have a break next week from terri for abit I will miss her company though.

Im single again now well i have sort of met someone else but im not going to go into much detail about it at the mo until I feel ready to talk about it cos its early days yet with this person. All im saying is this person is female she is coming 21 this year and she is from nottinghamshire. I went round to aunty carols last week for a bbq I really enjoyed it I had a few too many on the white wine but I had a laugh, we was talking about old times and with it being a nice nite we stayed outside on the garden til the early hours I kept on making carol laugh with all sorts of things. U know me and carol we have always got on. Last night I even went round to Valdos for A bbq and I had 2 in a half pints of cyder and black I was not pissed I behaved myself. Valdo was showing me his new England cap that he got from tesco I think I will get one myself tommorrow they look cool.

My mobile keeps on playing up and I have had some calls from people, it keeps on switching itself off so thats why im not answering my phone to anyone really u r better of sending me a text until I get my new phone from me brother sometime this month. I know one person phoned me and the only way i could get back to them was writting them a letter I have not heard anything yet so they must of got the letter, I posted it last weekend. On Sunday just gone I walked it to my dads house with terri it took us under 2 hours to get there we walked about 5 miles all toghter we left my place at 12.30pm and got to my dads for about 2.20pm we walked through cossall it was a lovley day too the sunshining etc... I wish everyday was like that. when I got to my dads my step sister amanda was there with baby Ami she looks lovley I got to hold her for abit and amanda was being nice to me and my dad for a change witch is strange. we went then for a walk around wollaton park there was something going off there like a rally of really old cars and a small fair thing too.

Now my brothers party that was last week there was a few people there who I have not seen in ages like Craig, Holly, Chelsea, Jade, Jack , leonie and Hannah. My brother had a disco at the larklands hotel and when I was there U never guess who I had words with? Kayliegh Rowson who had a fight with my best mate Manda, U should of seen it I had a right go at Kayleigh for what she did, she shit hersen when I had ago at her, she turned round and said to me that she will never start a fight with me cos she has been told by my brother that denise always finishs the fights and martin said to kayliegh that she would not stand a chance with me so kayleigh knows not to mess with me anyway enough on that subject, the party was really good and martin enjoyed himself. at the mo me and my family and a few friends are in talks about sorting out a sponcered walk sometime next month JULY. it is to gain funds for my music and we r thinking of walking from Ilkeston to Nottingham I will keep u posted more on that subject soon

Denise xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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qiuz see how long it takes u to do it [23 May 2006|09:29pm]
This took me 57 mins


Time Started: 20.29pm

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?
I get in and then start the water

2.) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle?

3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essense commercial?

4.) Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?

5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?

6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?

7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?

8.) How old do you look?
about 16 years old

9.) How old do you act?

10.) What's the last song you sang?
after all this time by simon webbe

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything?
yeah neopets

12.) What are your plans for the weekend?
going to my brother martins 18th birthday bash

13.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
Uh no

14) Do you ever intentionally vomit after eating?

15.) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be?
one of the pirates

16.) Have you ever called anyone a slut?

17) Have you ever been called a slut?
dont think so

18). Have you ever smuggled something into America?
Nope never been to america

20.) Does playing a guitar make someone more attractive?
no but it is good that they can play

21.) Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
I live in between nottingham and derby and both of there teams i do not support cos im not into football

23). How many people do you think would come to your funeral?
I have no idea

24). How many of them would come just to make sure you're dead?
Maybe Beck ringer and mark rowley

25). Do you have more enemies or more friends?

26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?

27.) Can you fix your own car?
Don't have one

28.) Have you ever turned someone down for a date?

29.) Are you smarter than your friends?
everyone of my friends including me are all smarter in differnt ways

30.) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?

31.) Have you ever been to jail?

33) Do you like the smell of beer?
Not really

34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?

35.) Have you ever given to charity?

36.) Would you kill a dog for $1000?
no that is cruel

37.) Do you sometimes get depressed?

38.) Do you live with your parents?
no just with my cat

39.) Do you have plans for your future?
to try and be succsessfull


You are
[] short, under 5'4 (I'm so not short - I'm only 14!!)
[x] 5'4 -5'6''
[] 5' 6.5''
[] 5'7" - 6'0
[] tall 6'1 and up

[] blonde
[] redhead
[] brunette
[] dirty blonde
[x] dark brown
[] black

[] blue-eyed
[] brown-eyed
[] green-eyed
[] hazel-eyed
[] gold/gray-eyed
[] silver/gray- eyed
[] blue/green-eyed
[x] blue/gray-eyed
[] they change colors

[x] glasses
[] contacts
[] neither

[] short hair
[x] medium hair
[] long hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[] red
[] khaki
[] aqua
[x] pink
[] hot pink
[] yellow
[] black
[] green
[] lime green
[x] blue
[] white
[] turqouise
[] silver
[x] purple
[] brown
[x] orange
[] gray
[] maroon
[] gold
[] teal
[] clear
[ ] bronze
[] don't really care
[] I don't believe in favorite colors

Some things you've done?
[] ice skating
[] hiking
[] kayaking (possibly cant remember)
[] rafting
[] water skiing
[] camping
[] horseback riding
[] bodysurfing and skin boarding
[] snowboarding
[] skiing
[x] dancing
[] skateboarding
[] cheerleading
[] lacrosse
[] street hockey
[] gymnastics
[] martial arts
[] baton twirling
[] swimming
[] wakeboarding
[] tubing

Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] laid back
[] strict
[] hyper
[] weird
[] ditzy
[] sarcastic
[x] slow

you like listening to?
[x] pop
[] country
[] christian
[] classical
[] techno
[] oldies
[] opera
[] 80's
[x] disco
[] rap
[] classic rock
[x] punk
[] metal
[] screamo
[] reggaeton
[] emo

The pets you have HAD?
[] cat(s)
[x] dog(s)
[] lizard(s)
[] hamster
[] ferret(s)
[] bunny
[x] fish
[ ] duck(s)
[ ] horse(s)
[] bird(s)
[] frog (s)
[] hermit crab
[] turtle
[] snake
[] gerbil
[] guinea pig
[] pig
[] goat
[] chinchilla
[] tarantula
[] geese
[ baby chicks
[] none
[] hedgehog
[] snail
[] perana
[] seagul
[] newt

Clothing Brands you like?
[] Delia's
[] american eagle
[] Hollister
[] The Buckle
[] Abercrombie & Fitch.
[] Target
[] Wal-mart
[] Wet Seal
[] Forever 21
[] O'neil
[] Pac Sun
[x] Gap
[] Banana Republic
[] Aeropostale
[] Dickies
[] Quicksilver
[] Anchor Blue
[] Guess
[] Lucky Brand
[] Champs
[] Salvation army/goodwill/value village
[] old navy
[] name brands
[] Victorias secret
[] whatever is at the thrift store
[] Eddie Bauer
[] Hot Topic
[x] Anything

Shoe Brands?
[] Flip-Flops
[] Rainbows
[x] Nike
[x] Adidas
[x] reebok
[] billabong
[] Roxy
[] Puma
[] Jack purcells
[] Uggs
[] Etnies
[] Reefs
[] Converse
[] K Swiss
[] Adio
[] DC
[] Globes
[] vans
[] if I like something alot I'll buy it
[] New Balance
[] LEI
[] Payless
[ ] DVS
[ ] Es
[ ] Macbeth
[] Whatever...

your confessions:
[] I'm afraid of silence
[] I am really ticklish
[] I'm afraid of the dark
[] I've collected comic books
[] I shut out others
[x] I open up to others easily(some people)
[x] I read the newspaper
[] I love Disney movies
[] I am a sucker for eyes
[] I don't kill bugs
[] "x"s in my screen name
[] I bake well
[] I have worn pajamas to class (Pyjama days were the best!!)
[] I love Martha Stewart
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[] I am self-conscious
[x] I love to laugh
[] I smoke cigarettes
[] I can't swallow pills
[] I bite my nails
[] I play computer games when I'm bored
[] Gotten lost in the city
[] Gone out in public in your pajamas (PYJAMA DAYS!!!)
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Been bungee jumping
[] Bitten someone
[] Dressed up like the opposite sex
[] egged a house/car
[] Smashed a car
[] Been fired
[] Been skinny dipping

Have you ever...
[] made out in the rain
[x] danced in the rain
[] seen a shooting star
[] proposed to anyone
[] Eaten Sushi
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Been on a cruise ship
[] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[] Been on a Plane by yourself
[] had surgery
[] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[x] been on stage
[] gotten a black eye
[] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[] watched an entire baseball game

Do you like...
[x] old movies
[x] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car
[x] foreign foods
[] Pokemon
[x] Christmas time
[x] donuts
[x] animals
[] coffee
[x] tea


Two Names You Go By Other Than Your Real Name:
Dee and Den

Two Parts of Your Heritage:
English & Irish

Two Things That Scare You:
Daddy long legs and moths

Two of Your Everyday Essentials:
Phone & pc

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Socks & glasess

Two Things You Want in a Relationship other than Real Love:
A best friend whose always there (I've decided thats 2)

Two Things that Appeal to You In a Guy/Girl:
Kind and caring

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
Music and traviling

Two Things You Want Really Badly:
to be accpet by others for the way i am and to be loved

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation:
USA and Australia

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
see the world and do a music tour

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now:
after this im gonna have some wheatabix and i hope heather is ok

Two people I haven't talked to in a while?
Emma Fisher and steven

Two favorite animals:
Cats and dogs

Two Reasons you're doing this surveey:
Nothing else to do, want to take my mind off some stuff.

Spell your name without vowels:

How many pairs of jeans do you own?:

How many are designer?:

What color do you wear most often?

Least favorite color?

Last song heard on the radio?
cooler than the red dress by the sugababes

What's for dinner tonight?
just had it it was burgers

Are you happy with your life right now?
at the mo yeah

Tell me a secret about one of your siblings:
She had a baby with a married iraqi man

Who did you last call on ur cell phone?

[Do you own a...]

- PS2?: No

- XBOX [360]?: No

- PSP?: No

-Gamecube? No



Do you shop at stores like Hollister, Abercrombie?: no

How do you make money?: job centre and selling my album plus dla

Last thing you bought over 50 dollars? clothes?

How's the weather?: Strange today

Are you missing someone right now?: Yea

What chores do you have around the house?: allsorts my flat is a bit of a shite hole at the min

One word to describe you: a friendley person

Favorite pair of shoes: I dont wear shoes

Do you own big sunglasses?: no

Do you find yourself attractive?: No

What would you rather be doing right now? be with friends

What should you be doing right now? cleaning up

Last text message you recieved? Terri

Who did you hug today?: no one today but heather last nite

Q: How many beds did you lay in yesterday?

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
im not

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
go on the computer

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
not alot at the mo

Q: Whats your favorite sport?
wrestling and judo

Q: I cant wait till..?
I next go away on hoilday

Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?
over two weeks ago

Q: Who got you to join myspace?

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
a boild egg

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?

Q: Look to your left. Whats there?

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
no idea

Q: What website do you visit the most?

Q: Do you have plants in your room?

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?:

Q: Do you own a picture phone?

Q: Whats your favorite starbucks drink?
hot chocolate

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
a few weeks ago i think

Last person you..
1. Saw: heather
2. Hugged: heather
3. Shopped With: my mum
5. Song you listen: let my fingers do the walking by pink
6. What are you doing now: This quiz and watching crime watch
7. What are you doing tonight: im having a nite in
8. What are you going to eat for lunch: i had burgers

70 Odd Questions...

[1] What is your middlename:

[2] what color is your mailbox:

[3] what kind of car do you drive:
I don't drive

[4] In the past 12 hours, have you told someone you loved them?:

[5] Did he/she say it back(see above)?

[6] Do you get the paper delivered to your house in the morning:

[7] Who checks the mail in your house?:

[9] Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you:

[10] What do you do first in the morning?:
make a cup of tea

[11] What brand is your printer:

[12] Do you enjoy fighting with people:
Im not the one to start fights but I do finish them

[13] Is your hair naturally straight or curly:
straight and wavey

[14] Who was your kindergarten teacher:
Miss Lound

[15] Are your teeth crooked:

[16] Are you taller than your mother:

[17] Do you have a favorite word:

[18] What color is the interior of your car:
i dont have one

[19] What do you do to get over a broken heart?:
Just keep my head up high cos u know that here are plenty of fish in the sea

[20] Do you have a deep dark secret:

[21] Do you know anyone who never rode a bike:

[23] Does anything hurt on your body right now:no

[24] Do you often cry during movies:

[25] Do you hate your life:
not now no

[26] Do you get mad easily:

[27] Do you drink to get drunk:

[28] What is your biggest pet peeve:

[29] What is your away message?:
in the bath

[30] Do any of your friends have kids?:

[32] Who should pay on the first date?:
Whoever asked.

[33] How many years older/younger than you are you willing to date?
5 years younger and 7 years older

[34] Do you have any friends:

[35] Do you have any mean friends:

[36] What is the ugliest color in your opinion:
umm dunno

[37] Have you ever liked someone who all your friends couldnt stand:

[38] Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff, seriously?

[39] Have you ever been fired from a job:

[40] What year was your house built:
11 years ago I think

[41] When was the last time you slept in someone elses bed:

[43] How tall are you:

[44] What is the closest green object?
winnie the pooh mouse mat

[45] What is on your feet:

[46] Do you always wear underwear?

[48] Do you want to have kids:

[49] How many years apart are you and your next sibling?:

[50] Who is the last friend you have that you would never expect to be gay?:
Errrm, dunno

[51] When was the last time you had a girls night or guys night:
Ages ago

[52] Whats your mothers middle name:

[53] Stupidest movie you ever saw:

[54] Do you collect comic books:

[55] Do you look like your dad:

[56] Do you have any TV shows on DVD:
not yet

[57] Are you wearing makeup:

[58] Do you have a tattoo:

[59] Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend:

[60] If you won the lottery you would:
Spend it wiseley

[61] How many pairs of underwear do you have:
Alot haha

[62] Is there something you want to tell someone but you dont know how:

[63] Who is your hero:
Delta Goodrem

[65.] Do you work a lot of hours?

[66] What do you do when you are stressed out?

[67] Is there anything you regret:

[68] Do you know where your family name originated from:

[69] Is there any animal that creeps you out?
daddy long legs

[70] is ur brother a retard?

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Who does she think she is [08 May 2006|03:08pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

KAYLIEGH ROWSON IS A FUCKING BITCH LEAVE MANDA ALONE. Kayleigh started on Manda again and this time I was there to witness the hole thing, Im still waiting for the police to phone to take statements and whatever. When Kayleigh started she made sure that me and manda was not looking so it came from behind, Kayleigh also had a few friends with her so they could join in but I knew one of the girls her name is Natalie and she used to go out with her brother, I did her say stop and I think its cos she knew me, I did not fight but manda took all 3 of them on the reason why I did not fight is cos none of them hit me and what I do is wait for them to hit me first and thats when I hit back. I did drag manda away from it all cos if I did not then manda could of been in a cell for the night and I dont want manda to go down that road at all if poss. Manda is best mate I look out for her as much as I can and I look upto her as a big sister even though im older. I have told manda to take Kayleigh to the cleaners and go all the way this time and hopefully kayleigh wont have a fucking leg to stand on.

Im back from Ireland I got back last Monday round about tea time ish, I really enjoyed it and it made a change cos this time I went with people who I thought would I get on with them and I did. I went with me mum, my cousins Jackie, Amy, Anna and my mate Terri, I did not get drunk I did have 9 half a cyder and black and if I had anymore then yes I think I would of knowen about it lol. Some of the family also came out with us on the saturday nite and I had a laugh with them all. My Aunty Anne kept on poking me well she had a bit to much to drink but me and her got on like a house on fire mind you we always have done, she wanted me to sing a song to the whole of the pub and I did I sang a track from the album "Dont Give Up" u know what I was not even nerverse I just got up and sang it and I got an appluse but then I did feel abit tearful afterwards, I think it was cos we was chatting about what I went through and how strong I have been about it all and also the amount of support that I have had from people has been so overwelming. I think I could be going back to ireland in feb next year.

Terri has got smackdown vs Raw on ps2 and she has done me on it and she has nailed me down to a t, and we have also done beck ringer and nailed her down to a t to, well I can not get my hands on her in real life but I can on this game and u know what I hit her over the head with a chair witch im glad lol.

I would like to thank manda for the new look on my journal thanx babe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

trish stratus all the way I hope she also gets better soon

Denise xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Im off to ireland soon [23 Apr 2006|11:46pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

Its for my mums hen weekend I go this friday so it should be cool, Im a little tried today had a late night last night I came home about 2.am went to bed about 3am. I have sorted out my differnce with her nextdoor but her stuff is still outside, I got pissed off with her for being nosy into my buisness she said that she is sorry for that and that she was only looking out for me I said to her I dont mind u looking out for me but u dont need to ask me all the time who was that person I seen u with in your flat or on the street etc... its that that did my head in. I do want her to get rid of the stuff but its like waiting for paint to dry more than anything and now I here that I wont stand a chance with her cos who she is mates with some stupid prick who thinks that he is shit hot yeah right.

My Mate Ant has got me hooked into wrestling I like a few of the Wrestlers Like Trish Stratus, Torrie wilson, John Cena, Edge (god he is nice looking in real life well I love his hair) Goldust seems a nice guy too I also like rey mesteryio and randy orton. Last Night I met a few of the wrestlers In nottingham I missed out on the tickets cos it was all sold out so me and my mate terri went to the arena to see if we could see anyone and we did. Terri loves John Cena to bits she goes on about him nearly all the time now cos she met him last nite lol. Me and terri know that it is all role play but there is no harm in asking the wrestlers do u get on in real life? and some of them do and some dont here have a read of this Put it this way Im over the moon who I met. I met Goldust, Snitky, Rob Van Dam, John Cena, Matt Sterkier, Edge, Chris Masters, Pat Patterson, Carlito, Torrie Wilson and Trish Stratus. What I did is Iwaited at the back of the arena and met a few there then after that I went to the hotel where they was staying and Trish stood taking to me for ages and I asked her a question about Mickie James I said to her do u get on in real life? The answer I got back was no they dislike each other and she was being honest and I seen Mickie and I gave her this really evil Look, Then I shown her My Trish Stratus Dvd and she did not know what to do well I think she knew not to speak to me. Mickie goes out with Mikey from sprit squad they make a good couple cos they r both mad lol. I gave trish and torrie my music album and I think trish could not beleive what I could do cos I told her that im a Singer/Songwriter and that I play Drums part time too. I gave her my address for any feedback back from the album so really its just a wait and see if I do here anything from her. I got A big massive hug from her and I think she liked it when me and my friend terri said to her we dont like Mickie James too, I wished her all the best for Backlash and that I hope she wins her title back and she said that she is going to try. then she touched my arm more like a well I think she had a good feel of my arm if u know what I mean? then she touched my hand she stroke it bless her. I think she is a really nice person her and John I also wished him well for backlash too and he said he is not very good at triple theart but he is gonna try his best. The tickets go on sale this friday for WWE RAW and im deffo going to watch this time, Barbara is also going too cos she is also hooked onto it and I think she likes chris masters.

Also P!nk is playing at the arena on the 11th november so when I get back from ireland I will be going to get tickets for that too, already I think a few r thinking of going to see her from the looks of things like a few more of my friends like carol, Gary, Terri, me mum, Valdo, me dad and sue so that should be fun too. From Tuesday the 2nd May I will be going to this group thing in Derby and if I want I could retake my G.C.S.E'S And also do acting glassess and if im lucky I may get the chance to preform at Derby playhouse. My Dad is back from America he got me a couple of t shirts I might take one to ireland with me. Anyway I would write some more but its getting late and I need to be up eraly tommorrow so what I will do is update when I get back from Ireland so c u later

Denise xxxx

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